A emotional day, a sad day, 1 of the worst day that have happen to me. I got a bad thing to announce today.

I had a medical appointment at Seng Kang Polyclinic today. I went for the X-ray scan for my injured right arm. Went there alone, quite boring queuing and taking numbers and having nothing to do but just wait.

After so long of waiting, my X-ray result is finally out. The doctor take a look at my result and he had this confuse look on his face. He said the out come is bad. He ask me to called my parents to come down. Once he told me that, I knew there was something. I thought it might be a infection on my shoulder or something else at 1st.

My mum arrive and he told my mum the result. The doctor told my mum what happen to me. I never expect it to be that worst. They suspect that I had cancer. I was so shock, mum too. I couldn't hold it, my tears burst out immidetally. The doctor can't explain what happen to me and the result is still not confirm. It might be something else, or maybe worst.

Took a cab to Singapore General Hospital as been told. Slience in the cab with my tears keeps on rolling down my cheeks. I don't even dare to look at my mum. I just kept quiet but millions of things are running through my mind.

What if... I really had cancer?

How much time did I had left?

Why is these things happening to me?

I am still young.

How am I going to take care of my parents when they gets old?

What am I going to do?

I felt so sorry for my parents. I let them down...

At SGH, me and my mum waited for the doctor to be free. I am the last to see the doctor. My mum was so worried. She cries and cries and I can't do anything to console her. I feel so useless. I called my sister to come down hoping that she will console my mum.

The doctor finally free. He was a specialist. He look into my X-rays and said the same thing. Something is eating up my bone. I had lost parts of my bone length around 5 cm. That sound horrible. What if it can't be heal?

The doctor puts me in a ward. Some of my friends and relatives came and visit me. My father rush down once he heard the news. Hope you are alright dad. I know you are sad and hurt but I will listen to you, I will be strong. I will be strong no matter what the outcome will be. I will do my everything to makes you happy. I don't want to see you cry like that again.

P.S. I love you dad. I love you mum. I love you sis. And I love all of you to all my relatives and friends. I love you.

How I hope that when I woke up, all these will be a dream. ... ... ...